TALKTIME #18: RESPECT YOUR RELATIONSHIP WITH READING
WARNING: This might seem really strange to start with and you might not completely follow my line of logic, but if you can manage to track through it, I think you will understand what I am trying to say.
So as I am keen to do with most of my posts, I'm going to start off with some background because I don't like you guys to go blind into these posts and thinking "what the hell is she even saying???". During the school year, I had some good reading months and I had some bad. After winter break, I had a long string of bad reading months until May came and I had a great reading month until I started my summer medical program in June and I have once again come back to having a shit reading month.
During my really shitty reading months, I have often found myself trying to force myself to read. Sometimes this kickstarts my love for reading into high gear and I find myself soaking in a book with every spare second. But more often than not, I end up taking a hella long time to read just one book and I think the book is just alright or I straight up hate it.
This has led me to the conclusion that I need to respect my relationship with reading. Now what exactly do I mean by that? Reading is something that requires your complete respect and love. There are going to be times in your life where reading is your everything and it makes you happy and you genuinely enjoy the books. But there are also those times when you do read, you're reading because you feel either guilt-tripped into reading, you have to (whether it's for class, a review, etc.), or you just slowly trudge through the book because you want to read, but it just doesn't feel right.
Last year I would have told you guys that I want to read as many books possible and that reading 100 books was a goal I just had to accomplish (which I barely did). But I have changed my thoughts since then, and I like to think these thoughts are for the best. Reading a lot of books is not worth it if most of the books I read are sub-par or I hate. I would rather read 20 really great books than 100 okay books. Reading should be about the content and the joy of reading, not how many books you read. Last year as a blogger, I felt my worth as a reader and a blogger was based off of how many books I read. I needed to read a shit ton of books and be like everyone else who seems to have all the time in the world to read. But I'm not like a lot of other bloggers. I'm a premed college student who frankly wastes too much time as it.
Basically what I'm trying to get at is that reading is something that you should respect and balance out. For me that means reading only what I truly want to read and not basing my worth off of how much I read. If you are one of those people who feel compelled to reading a billion books in a year, then by all means, do it. But you should really stop and think about what why you are reading and if you even love the books you are reading. Are you reading for yourself? Or are you reading in order to stay tuned with the booksphere? Think about it.
I would love to hear what you guys think in the comments. What is your view on reading? Tell me down below.